I doubt I could have picked a better title for this entry then the one I did. Since winter came, everything has been going downhill for me; my mother and sister always seem to be in tears, and my father is stricter (and crueler) then ever. I think it all started when my mother confessed her plans to leave us to go to New Mexico with her girlfriend during the last days of fall. I guess I should say for her defense that compared to what she's going through; I could be living the life of a princess. Still, since then she's been having fits and spending less and less time with us for the sake of our aunt's children, since she's a police officer she doesn't get a lot of time with her children either.

I'm not to sure what's going on in my fathers life, other then he seems to be meaner then before. It's possible he's just stressed (like who isn't?) because of the winter holidays, and stupid people Christmas shopping everywhere. I guess I could be included in that group, since I promised my friend in California a present, some real nice cologne. I spent all of my money on it, and I want to get it in the mail before it's too late, but since my mother's never really around there isn't much I can do. I'm really not too concerned with my sister; I think she's crying all the time because she thinks she's ugly. She refuses to pop her pimples, and so now they're all over her face, poor thing. Still, it's not enough to really cry about, is it? (Just pop the damn things and get it over with, it can't hurt that much)!

So all of this added up has made a very unhappy me, I'm sure other people everywhere are having even worse problems, but I find it hard to care in this Hell my life has become. (I'm finding it hard to care about anything, other then the fact I can't care. Is this a sign of insanity)? I feel like I'm responsible for holding this dying family together, I haven't felt this bad since my parents divorced. (Can we really be called a family if my mother and father don't give a damn)? So, if I stop coming on- (I know I'm never on anyway, who would care? I don't even know why I'm writing this, since I only have one friend on here who barely knows I exist) I guess now you know why.

Thanks for Reading,
Stephanie B. Williams